DeePress? Yes Iam!!! Dammit!

drunk and wasted and after that great cry out splurge at a cr duing the team's gimmick
tryin to smile...but the eyes..tells all...trying to get that old feeling again
i know...i should be over it


I refused to be miserable,yet for a day or two and yes till now, in a way, i have been...and i know i shouldnt be feeling this way, not to one person who is selfish and so self centered...the thing is, i loved the person in the truest sense of the word...and I thought we will straighten things in a good way...nope we were not talkin about reconciliation or getting back togetether..we were talking about the possibility of being civil and being friends...i was caught unaware when he came to see me and have her gf along...so hurt that I was unprepared to react normally..maybe i was not expecting he will be bringing her..how bobo!hahah
I know...its been so long...imjust heart, verything is just a pattern..sometimes i feel there is something wrong with me...nyways,it has been my off since sunday..had vl andwont be back to work till tom nyt...im just home,whining,relaxing, broke, eating and doing movie marathon..came across Drew Barrymore's and Hugh Grant's movie, their song woke me up on my phone...love the lyrics, andagain made me mushy..and hopeful....
Way Back to love??? yea,still hopeful.....

I’ve been living with a shadow overhead

I’ve been sleeping with a cloud above my bed

I’ve been lonely for so long

Trapped in the past,

I just can’t seem to move on
I’ve been hiding all my hopes and dreams away

Just in case I ever need em again someday

I’ve been setting aside time

To clear a little space in the corners of my mind

All I want to do is find a way back into love

I can’t make it through without a way back into love

Oh oh oh
I’ve been watching but the stars refuse to shine

I’ve been searching but I just don’t see the signs

I know that it’s out there

There’s got to be something for my soul somewhere

I’ve been looking for someone to shed some light

Not just somebody just to get me throught the night

I could use some direction

And I’m open to your suggestions
All I want to do is find a way back into love

I can’t make it through without a way back into love

And if I open my heart again

I guess I’m hoping you’ll be there for me in the end

There are moments when I don’t know if it’s real

Or if anybody feels the way I feel

I need inspiration

Not just another negotiation
All I want to do is find a way back into love

I can’t make it through without a way back into love

And if I open my heart to you

I’m hoping you’ll show me what to do

And if you help me to start again

You know that I’ll be there for you in the end

DeePress Mode

I've been up, down, trying to get the feeling again
All around, trying to get the feeling again
The one that make me shiver
Make my knees start to quiver
Every time he walks in

I've looked high, low
Everywhere I possibly can
But there's just no trying to get the feeling again
It seemed to disappear as fast as it came

read every book
look for every meditation and poem
just to bring home that old sweet sensation
but it ain't no used to me, trying to get the feeling again

Where did it run to? I thought I'd done all that I could
To keep the love burning
But whatever I've done, I just haven't done it too good
Cause all that's left is yearning

I've been up, down, trying to get the feeling again
Like a bloodhound searching for a long lost friend
could you help me rediscover
the way to re be her lover once again

read every book
look for every meditation and poem
just to bring home that old sweet sensation
But it ain't no used to me, to try and get that feeling
I want to get that feeling again

I've been up, down, trying to get the feeling again
I've been up, down, trying to get the feeling again
I've been up, down, trying to get the feeling again
trying to get the feeling again

 

 

Nuthin to do but rant....

I have work later....yet i can't seem tofind the mood to doze off and sleep...i have been thinking about a lot of things,mostly about my ex...haha i dunno wh at is with me...maybe because he is just around manila after hibernating in US for long. Ours was a bitter break up and I mean bitter. yet I still reply to      his ym's just to be civil and just to let him feel in a way that iam A-OK...am I?

I dunno...this morning Cressy and I chat till the wee hrs of the morning again for the nth time ranting about men...hahah...Iam currently dating someone yet I am not just so ready to venture in another relationship after a bitter clash with heart break...I just don't know what to do if and when we meet up in the street after the break up last Otober...

 

I need a date.....

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Again with SMB-light...to lighten upmy heart hahahaha

 

Mushy!